More about THE idea

First off thanks to all of you that left encouraging comments about me going back to school. It really helps!

You were probably wondering what happened to make me suddenly have the thought that I wanted to quit babysitting all together. I use to love babysitting and in many ways I still do. However I have had so many problems with Elianna lately, she is a screamer, when she doesn't get her way, she screams. She screams when any of the other kids take something from her or they have something she wants. A single day doesn't go by that she doesn't cry/scream at least a few times. I feel like I have been spending my days yelling at her all day. Then Friday I had a day of just her and my sister's 2 girls and the day was SO calm. Elianna and the 2 year old got along great. They may have faught a time or two, but nothing like the days with all the kids. Elianna was such a calm loving girl that day, I loved it. That got me thinking that maybe she needs more time with just me and her behavior would greatly improve (at least I am hoping).

Another thing, I love doing crafts and other fun things with the kids but it's been a while since I have been able to. My cousin's little boy (10 months) is VERY clingy and wants to be held ALOT and when he is down crawling around he puts EVERYTHING in his mouth. Oh and I forgot to mention, he seldom ever naps and when he does you never know if it's going to be for 10 minutes or for 2 hours. When I have managed to do crafts with them lately I haven't made it till they were done before he starts crying. That leads me to having to deal with him and take the attention off the kids doing the crafts. They take advantage of that and paint things they aren't suppose to, pour glue all over the place, tear up each others things, etc. I end up so stressed it's nuts. I end up yelling at the kids (which I hate doing) and that just takes all the fun out of the project.

And then there is the fighting, oh the fighting. I'm just going to leave it at saying that, I get so frustrated with how much these kids fight with each other.

Oh then there is also Bethanie. By time she gets home from school and the other kids all leave I have so much to do like getting her to do her homework, dinner, getting caught up from the day and getting ready for the next day, that I feel I never spend real TIME with her. Yes we are together, but it's just not how I want it to be.

So there you have the main reasons, there is other stuff to some of which involve the parents but I won't talk about that for now! As for the college idea-I have emailed my former advisor asking her where I need to start in going back. I mentioned it to my husband, he wasn't overly excited about the idea but he said he didn't have a problem with it. And I mentioned it to my sister and she was thrilled with the idea that she would get to stay home. I'll keep you posted on how things progress.